I’ve had writer’s guilt, been wanting to write, so desperately but been unable to. Been an odd few weeks, the medication has now well and truly kicked in and I remain a salient calm, still feel but not as extreme and everything else seems to be going well.
I am still an OCD mess questioning everything, Gary has unknowingly bore the brunt of this recently. I spoke of him highly in a recent therapy session and afterwards I felt like a fraud. Did I really feel that way about him? Was I just doing it for effect? I don’t know anymore. I begin to analyse every little thing he does, get easily agitated and snappy. How do you know what love is?
Other than that, I’m still a sleeping alcoholic with money troubles, Christmas always brings up my money concerns. Wanting to treat those around me coupled with a fear of over spending and it running out. Plus, I’m getting there with sleep, now I’ve worked out a link with sleep and danger it doesn’t pose the same stress however I now have the worry about not worrying!
So a short post I appreciate but an update nonetheless! I’m always happy to chat and if you would like to, please see the ‘Contact’ tab, however I am not a mental health professional and if you would like this support please see the ‘Support’ tab.